I Never Thought I'd Say No

You have gone through so much with us, dear readers. Thank you for your prayers and your faithfulness through this.
Our agency has brought us two little boys. One was so precious, his name is J. We watched his video and after a talk we said no. There was nothing wrong with this boy so we knew that he would be adopted fast. We were just looking more for a child that was harder to place.
We are one of the only families our agency has that is looking for a child with Vision Impairments(VI). Not many families are willing to take that on so we have been very firm that we would like to adopt a child that is either blind or can see very little. We are open to many "disabilities" including a missing limb, fused limbs or appendages, cleft palate, blindness, deafness, and many others that would be very difficult to explain but are common in China. The list of disabilities we are open to is very long. But we definitely have a heart for those who are blind.
So knowing that our agency brought us A. A was completely blind with congenital cataracts in both eyes and so so beautiful!!! We said YES! We were so excited. Our next step was to go to the International Pediatrician and have her review his case.
After talking to the pediatrician we had to say no to A. And again our hearts broke.
We knew our limits going in. Once we realized that Gods plan was not for us to take the easy route(a "correctable" or "perfect" baby), we had to really look hard at what we could or could not do. We had said no to several disabilities, such as muscular distrophy, severe cerebral palsy, and a few others. We are not interested in having a genius in the family, thats not what we are looking for, but we are looking for a child who will be at least able to eventually be independent, even in an assisted living situation.
When the International Pediatrician talked to us she asked us if we had ever had experience with a blind person. Jeremy said no but I brought up a woman who I had worked with when I worked with adults with developmental disabilities. This woman was blind, deaf, non-verbal, and extremely self-abusive. Her mother had had Rubella while pregnant(german measles) and because of that the baby, this woman, ended up with every disability you can imagine. She was able to walk but she could do little else. She was precious. She was about 30 and she was a little shorter than Caleb(who is almost 5). I had never even talked to Jeremy about her, it was just a God thing that I would mention her to the pediatrician because towards the end of the conversation, when we just wanted it to be put very plainly for us, she said that this boy, little A, would be very similar.
We are happy in the knowledge that baby A will be able to be placed into a family who a lot more information about him, now that the international pediatrician has laid it all out for them. God is good.

Prayer requests:
1- Funding. This is going to be a little more serious right now. Usually I say, "general funding". Right now our funding is very specific. Each child we say yes to has to be brought before the international pediatrician. The first case, baby A, cost us $575. Each time we say yes to a child we will pay an additional $400. So if the next child we say yes to goes before the international pediatrician and again we have to say no, that is almost $1,000 that is just gone. This is very scary for us, we had no thoughts that we would have to say no to anyone. I never thought I would say no. So please pray and see where you heart leads you.
2- Baby A. Since his disabilities are so severe it may cause other families to also say no. Please pray that a special family is out there for this precious boy.
3- the older kids. They age out and are considered adults at age 14. Please pray that they find Jesus in this dark land.
4- our patience. We have already said no to 2 kids and we have been told no about 2 kids. This is difficult but we know that God has a plan for us. Please pray for our child, we know God has him or her out there.